Is This Love?
The first time I
experienced real love or I should say, what I thought was real love, I was
scarcely sixteen and he was twenty-one. It was an on again/off again rocky ride
that lasted just shy of two years. I won’t go in to gory details, but the first
time I came to and found my face had been bashed into the side of a car door, I should’ve
walked away. It wasn’t ignorance or the fluffy feelings of love that kept me in
the relationship, but the embarrassment of the whole situation, and the fact
that for a brief time, I truly believed his bullshit, that it was my fault, that
somehow, I had brought the whole fucking mess upon myself. Yeah, right. After I
woke up and realized how bad we were together, I changed. Unfortunately, I
ended up becoming as violent as my abuser for a time until I finally just left.
It was either him or me. Does this situation sound familiar?
Abuse can happen
to anyone and, as you can probably guess, it’s a subject that I’m vocally
passionate about. No one, and I mean no one, has the right to tell you what to
do, who your friends should be, how to dress, or what to eat. Neither do they
have the right to manipulate. Abuse can manifest in many forms: physical,
sexual, emotional, verbal, and psychological; words spoken with subtle, threatening undertones and/or of control, or it can be swift and painful.
This is a touchy
subject for some and especially those in the gay community. For instance, did
you know that one in ten gay men are abused, or have been abused, in some form
by their significant other? Mind you, the stat is just an educated guess
because regrettably most men, and in particular, gay men, don’t like to tell
anyone they’re being abused, and secondly, some men don’t even realize they’re
being abused. When a man abuses his partner most people, and this includes the
police, honestly believe it’s consensual, that the victim actually enjoys it.
This is in reference to BDSM. There’s a twisted assumption out there that gay
and lesbian couples are automatically into kink due to their sexual preference,
so abuse is a natural part of their relationships. Others poke fun and think
it’s a joke, thus enabling the abuser to continue.
Here are the
sobering (US) stats:
Domestic
violence among gay and lesbian couples is approximately twenty-five to
thirty-three percent and is as commonplace as it is in heterosexual relationships.
Every year, as
many as five hundred thousand Gay men and between fifty to a hundred thousand
Lesbian women are battered (yes the numbers are legit).
Physical size
and stereotypical ideals have nothing to do with who the abuser is in a relationship.
Even though the
rate of same-sex abuse is similar to heterosexual abuse there are fewer ways to
protect these men and women thanks in large part to judicial prejudice.
There a seven
states that define domestic violence in such a way that it excludes same-sex
victims.
The abuser in
these relationships uses the same method and weapons to control the victim, no
different than heterosexual relationships—family, friends, etc.
I could go on
and on spewing stats and the myths and reasons behind them, but I don’t feel it
would do anyone justice. The simple truth…we seriously need to take a long,
hard look at our laws, and we need to reeducate our leaders, law enforcement
officials, and anyone else who is in a position to change things. There are men
and women out there who are abused on a daily basis. They’re scared and they’re
alone. Hell, there are straight men and women and children trapped in the same
disturbing situation. If you witnessed…say a man abusing his partner what would
you do? Would you step up to the plate?
Anyone who has
lived with abuse can relate to that feeling of empty worthlessness—the fear and
loneliness. And most, desperately want out of the relationship. But perhaps,
they feel a sense of confusion because they don’t know where to turn. One step
in the right direction is awareness. If you have a story to tell, I dare you to
share it with someone else, someone that is possibly facing abuse or has faced
it. Sharing encourages the healing process. Remember, everyone deserves
respect. And, everyone is entitled to a loving relationship!
Blak Rayne
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